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A really long time ago, someone asked me what it is that I look for in a boyfriend and I said: if he could make me happy and they told me that love wasn't that simple, that there were more things to love than him making you happy. But is it really not that simple? I still believe that it is. And I feel like I've found a guy (ok he found me first) who can make me happy, and does whatever it takes to do so, even if it means embarrassing himself a little or being a dork. Because at the end of the day, everything he do and says, it's to see me smile and for me to be happy. Ok the thing is, yes, I know that ever since that silly dorky weirdo ^ became a part of my life, I've been spending lesser time with friends and it's not because I'm 重色轻友 (bet people be like :o :o right now but seriously, I had to pause and google that for awhile AND watch a video of an angmoh telling me what that means, oh the shame haha Okay but not the point here, but please tell me I just used this phrase right) or that I forgot about my friends when I've got him. I know maybe people may not understand why but it's like somehow I'm so in love with that dumbo that things don't feel.... right when I'm not with him and that I'll constantly think about him, every minute of every day, just wondering about what he's doing, where is he and if he's okay? It's like he drives me crazy (in a good way) that I can't seem to function normally. So much so that whenever I'm out with friends, I'm a little out of sorts and I can't focus. And if you know me, I don't like to be doing something else (aka texting/on the phone with someone else - also why i hardly ever reply to messages so I'm sorry) when I'm with people, and especially when I'm with just one person because it's just rude to me. But now that I can't focus on my companions who are out with me for the day and I keep fighting the urge to stick to my values, I feel like I'm not good company and I'd rather not. Sometimes, I try really hard to be good company, and to give 100% of me to who I'm with at that time but sometimes, it just gets hard you know? And other times, all I would ever want to do, is share with my friends about how happy I am with him, but people don't like that kind of things, at least not all the time. So I guess I'm sorry and I hope people will understand that he makes me happy and I'm happy with him so I hope people will be happy for me. But apart from that, I'm a little glad that I'm this way too, because I get to spend more time with him before he enlists for the army :-( Because all I really know is, I'll really miss that prince charming of mine. Thanks for your skinny bear hugs that I'll miss, and your funky sotong dance moves, your silly faces, for breaking into really entertaining song performances on our car trips and, actually almost anywhere and everywhere, for being my legs when I'm tired, for feeding my bottomless pit of a tummy, doing my favourite things with me to make me happy and all of the happy moments we've spent together, every single one of them, and for all the things you do to make me smile. And I know I've said this more than a gazillion times, thank you for you, for being sucha dumbo and not giving up on me. I hope you'll be safe in the army, my dragon slaying hero :*